It was such a relief having Kim Hyuna as his best friend. Where would he be without this girl? Truly, honestly; where? For starters he'd be a lot of places that were lower than the standard of person he had become now - because she demanded better of him and he wanted that pull, that push. He needed it. Otherwise he became stagnant and he lived too much in his head, too much in his studio for anything to get him to focus on his heart. Kim Hyuna was there to remind him of the important things in life; being good, being honest, being true. Instead of being a workaholic she made him get out and breathe fresh air.
Her words were comforting to him. He knew he wanted a best friend in his partner, in whatever girl came his way, whatever girl developed that level of trust and friendship and yet with the intensity and fire of a passionate relationship. Hyuna was right - it needs to be someone that matches, matches. Something like a best friend he could see himself having awesome sex with. Junhyung chuckled at this part of her words because it was sweet, understanding.... honest. Honesty, there it was again. And all the while he was starting to feel a little bit better. Twisting up worries in his head could be dangerous if he didn't let them out. Hyuna made sense of it all. He wanted her.... but yet not her at the same time, someone like her but not quite her because again, where would he be without his best friend? And if love taught him anything it was that the romantic kind was unstable and unsteady, prone to lies, deceit and deception. Friendship and best-friendship.... those were pillars of steadiness. Things he could build a raft out of and make it back to shore.
"Pabo," he repeated back to her, smiling - he hoped she could hear it in his voice. "I see what you mean and you've made it make sense. It's because we need both and you're my best friend for a reason. Our friendship, our relationship has already solidified itself in our minds. It's everlasting so, fuck, why wouldn't I look for that in someone else? But like you said it's more, it's about that passion, that 'I want to have awesome sex with you' feeling that isn't awkward, or forced, or weird. Fun, maybe, a little silly but never uncomfortable." Junhyung let out a breath. "And you need that too but you're patient. I try to find it in whoever I feel a spark with but that's not the right way to go about it. It needs to be proper - friendship and then whatever comes next, because at the end of the day I'll always have you even if that goes south and you know the same for me, I'll always be here for you, always. And if you need anything - a...pretend boyfriend, someone to pin the blame on, someone to hide from the gremlin's in your closet well, you got me, babe."
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Her words were comforting to him. He knew he wanted a best friend in his partner, in whatever girl came his way, whatever girl developed that level of trust and friendship and yet with the intensity and fire of a passionate relationship. Hyuna was right - it needs to be someone that matches, matches. Something like a best friend he could see himself having awesome sex with. Junhyung chuckled at this part of her words because it was sweet, understanding.... honest. Honesty, there it was again. And all the while he was starting to feel a little bit better. Twisting up worries in his head could be dangerous if he didn't let them out. Hyuna made sense of it all. He wanted her.... but yet not her at the same time, someone like her but not quite her because again, where would he be without his best friend? And if love taught him anything it was that the romantic kind was unstable and unsteady, prone to lies, deceit and deception. Friendship and best-friendship.... those were pillars of steadiness. Things he could build a raft out of and make it back to shore.
"Pabo," he repeated back to her, smiling - he hoped she could hear it in his voice. "I see what you mean and you've made it make sense. It's because we need both and you're my best friend for a reason. Our friendship, our relationship has already solidified itself in our minds. It's everlasting so, fuck, why wouldn't I look for that in someone else? But like you said it's more, it's about that passion, that 'I want to have awesome sex with you' feeling that isn't awkward, or forced, or weird. Fun, maybe, a little silly but never uncomfortable." Junhyung let out a breath. "And you need that too but you're patient. I try to find it in whoever I feel a spark with but that's not the right way to go about it. It needs to be proper - friendship and then whatever comes next, because at the end of the day I'll always have you even if that goes south and you know the same for me, I'll always be here for you, always. And if you need anything - a...pretend boyfriend, someone to pin the blame on, someone to hide from the gremlin's in your closet well, you got me, babe."